Kaeoru Eiji Atsushi [Finished]

[kaeoru]

Kaeoru Eiji Atsushi

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ALL AROUND ME ARE FAMILIAR FACE, WORN OUT PLACES, WORN OUT FACES

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BRIGHT AND EARLY FOR THEIR DAILY RACES, GOING NOWHERE, GOING NOWHERE!
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WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
Kaeoru Eiji Atsushi
DO YOU HAVE ANY NICKNAMES?
Some people call me Kae. [K-ay]
WHERE IS BIRTH PLACE?
Naha, Okinawa [Japan]
THAT MAKES YOUR NATIONALITY...
Japanese
WHEN IS YOUR BIRTH DATE
June the Tenth
HOW OLD DOES THAT MAKE YOU?
Eighteen
WHAT IS YOUR RELIGION?
Pagan
WHAT IS YOUR SEXUALITY?
Bi-curious [Leaning more towards guys]
WHAT CRIME SENT YOU HERE?
First-degree Murder.
HOW LONG IS YOUR SENTENCE?
Three Years, Twenty Eight days
WHO DO YOU BEST RESEMBLE?
"Jaejoong"

IT'S A VERY, VERY, MAD WORLD!
THEIR TEARS ARE FILLING UP THEIR GLASSES, NO EXPRESSION, NO EXPRESSION.
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WHAT DO YOU ENJOY?

• Rain
  
• Razors
  
• Pain
  
• Tattoos
  
• Piercings
  
• Leather
  
• Pharmaceutical drugs
  
• Meth
  
• Snow
  
• Writing
  
• Loud Music (Metal,Rock)
  
• Drugs in General
  

WHAT DO YOU NOT ENJOY?

• Sweets
  
• Flowers
  
• Movies
  
• Needles
  
• Guns
  
• Video Games
  
• Large Bodies of Water
  
• Heights
  
• Government
  
• Jail
  
• Confinement
  
• White Rooms
  
• Ringing of a Phone
  
• Most Girls
  
• Children
  
• Fish
  

WHAT DO YOU FEAR MOST?

• Storms
  
• Going back to Jail
  
• Lots of Blood
  
• Seizures
  
• Over killing
  
• Being Controlled
  
• Anything Government wise
  
• Being Alone
  

WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS IN LIFE?

• Find the ones that killed her
  
• Finish College
  
• Finding Someone? Maybe not..(no one could replace Ami)
  
• Master playing the Drums
  
• Finish my Novel
  
• Get the fuck out of here
  

WHAT ARE YOUR FLAWS?

• Huge Germ-a-phobe
  
• Likes Guys more then Girls
  
• Distances Himself
  
• Cutting/ Self Violation
  
• Taking on the World's Problems
  
• Getting into Other people's business
  
• Problems more then he can handle
  
• Slight Drug Addiction
  
• Anger Issues
  

WHAT ARE YOUR TURN ONS?

• Biting
  
• Kissing
  
• Rough Play
  
• S&M
  
• Flirting
  
• Piercings and Tattoos
  
• Cutting others
  
• Wrestling
  

WHAT ARE YOUR TURN OFFS?

• Romance
  
• Girls? I think...
  
• Bodily Fluids [besides blood]
  
• Innocence
  
• Children
  
• Cosplay
  
• Food Play
  
• Animals
  
• Lingerie
  

WHAT IS YOUR BEST MEMORY?
It was a sunny afternoon as I recall, and the Sakura were falling; it was the day of the flower viewing festival and I was just as excited as anyone else to be completely honest. Of course, I had other intentions of doing so after all, it was the day I was going to purpose to Ami, and she was going to meet me there; although she didn't know of my reasons.
I was a little late, fashionable late (it took forever to get the ring) and there she was, standing under a Sakura tree, petal falling around her face as she watched the sky. Ami did that often anyways, she always found pretty things to stare at from time to time. It was a magical moment to be honest, I don't even remember how happy I was but, I cried when she said yes and we stood there, staring into each others eyes and it seemed like the world had stopped moving.
WHAT IS YOUR WORST MEMORY?
I can't even believe that have something like this. It hurts to try and remember this stuff but fine.. I'll tell anyways.
Before the event that caused everything to go to hell, before my life had changed and the world stopped spinning for me (or so I believe) I remember getting that phone call, it had only rang twice before I picked it up and I remember the rush in the man's voice, the background sirens and the talk between the police. After only a few moments, something inside me stirred and I couldn't help but blame myself and everyone else that was around me. In fact, it felt like fire burning in my heart and... I just went crazy but, it wasn't my fault.. I didn't do anything wrong.. I don't think.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF!
Kaeoru can only be defined as twisted in his own sense. In fact, he was once a very happy guy, very optimistic and in his own little world. That was when everything made sense at least, but now, things had dramatically changed. He's the type to keep himself distant from people. After all, why get involved when all you ever do is hurt others right?

At least that is what Kaeoru told himself to this point. He usually kept himself mute, unless someone else talked to him first, or something he didn't like was going on. Then Kaeoru would poke his nose into their business and make sure that the saw his way or there would be touble. Violent yes but, with as many flaws and weaknesses that he had, Kaeoru couldn't keep that going very long for his persona; he had to escape every so often.

Of course, he didn't do very well under pressure, it was another flaw that he dealt with in the real world. Having to deal with too much stress after all. Women got to him more then men did, which is usually why he took their side. Yeah, he would hit a girl and he has before; that romance stuff was bullshit to him and he didn't care to follow it.

Why try to follow something when no one else does and you can basically trust no one right? That's what Kaeoru went for, trust no one, try to keep to yourself (at least as much as you could) and fight for what you had.. or didn't have for this matter. He didn't care, making friends was the least of his worries, he just wanted to get the hell out of here. Of course, anyone could find his soft spot, if he even had one and who knew, maybe he would warm up a little if everything didn't seem so aggressive where he had to defend himself. In the end, Kaeoru could be summed up in only a few words;

Arrogant,Strange,Guarded,Defiant,Depressed and Faded.

IT'S A VERY, VERY, MAD WORLD!
THE DREAMS IN WHICH IM DYING ARE THE BEST I HAVE EVER HAD.
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WHO IS YOUR MOTHER? HOW OLD IS SHE? WHAT DOES SHE DO?
Haruhi Atsushi; 45- Doctor
WHO IS YOUR FATHER? HOW OLD IS HE? WHAT DOES HE DO?
Tamaki Atsushi; 50- Doctor
DO YOU HAVE ANY BROTHERS?
None (only child)
DO YOU HAVE ANY SISTERS?
None (only child)
ANY OTHER RELATIVES I SHOULD KNOW ABOUT?
Not really
TELL ME ABOUT YOUR PAST!
I can't really explain to you how I felt before that phone call, before everything in my world had changed completely without my consent. Of course, the only words I feel could even come close was that I was, for one, happy. Why wouldn't anyone feel that way? When you had purposed to the one you love without rejection, and the fact that she had your unborn child growing within her; it seems like it would be fairly close to call this happiness and that at least, for me, I felt like my life had meaning to it, and that everything would be better from my lonesome childhood. Not that my childhood was horrible but, for the most part of it, I was living something close to average with always busy parents and such living their own dreams. When your parents are both doctors, always gone to leave you alone at home, you have access to every pharmaceutical drug out there; except even at the age of nine, I was able to trade that stuff for other drugs that I wanted. (just to feed my addiction of course) Something about dreaming and success always ran through the family.

Of course, after that phone call, it was like the rain that poured outside had faded away all the color of the world and turned everything black and white for a turn of events. I don't even remember saying anything when I dropped the phone either, just my sorry ass standing there, mouth open and no words could come out, even if they wanted to with how my throat closed up and the air around me compressed to my body. Then, after dropping the phone on the ground, resulting it to smash into a million pieces, I recall running, grabbing a metal bat and just running, until my heart gave out.

I wanted it to give out, and let it all end at that point. I didn't care how far I went, just that I would have enough to help me cry. I wanted to cry at least, but I didn't until after I had begun. I had gotten to the clinic, seen her laying there and as the doctors shook their head at me, the tears began. Like they didn't even know, like they didn't care. It tore me apart that people could just allow this to happen. We have technology to go into space and live but they couldn't save her or my child from the rape, no they just were lazy and that's when I broke down.

I started there, after a moment of heat that sent goose bumps along my skin, I started the madness that erupted inside of me. I had a reason though right? I had every damn reason to do this. It was their fault.. but I felt like it had been mine. Just one swing of the bat, I didn't even care if it hit anyone, although, when it collided with the back of the doctor's head, I couldn't just stop there, no I had to continue doing it, and every nurse that ran up to me to stop me, or doctor that tried to get help, I swung the bat at, causing their heads to bust open and for them to fall on the floor. I wanted them as messed up as they had my fiance, as they had my baby.

Another glance at her, she was so torn up, so unrecognizable, and in fact, it fed my desire to kill, it pushed me forward and so I did. I continued doing it, continued swinging at every nurse, officer and doctor that ran at me. Some had guns, and some were trying to talk me down. I didn't let them, I just went on my with the killing spree. I wouldn't allow them to tell me no, they were the ones who killed her, well.. not exactly.

Maybe I blamed myself too much but, I ran out of that hospital without thinking twice. It was just fate that when I had finished my running that I would run into the group of men that really had killed her, that had violated her and my child and they stood there, laughing. Of course, no one else knew this, but I saw it in their eyes, even as "rich and innocent" as they looked, I just knew it was them and I started swinging again and tears did not flow this time, because I didn't care. I wanted to feel the pain, as much as possible and I even kicked a few of the fallen bodies, just to make sure that they were dead or destroyed.

When the police showed up, they couldn't see what I saw; they just saw what they wanted and when that happens, there was nothing you could say or do to pull you out of that situation and even when the rest of the group ran off with bloody faces, clothes and weapons, I stood there like an idiot. (I swore to myself I would find the rest of them) I don't remember if they even drugged screened me or not. That was a lie, I do remember, everything from the multiple drug screens to the white room and the needles. (I hate needles) Six months later, I'm sent to this place to try to rehabilitate myself into being normal again. I don't think it will work but I just don't know anymore..

IT'S A VERY, VEIRY, MAD WORLD!
HIDE MY HEAD I WANT TO DROWN MY SORROWS, NO TOMMOROW, NO TOMORROW
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THE ROLEPLAYER!

NAME/ALIAS
Call me Kaeoru or Kae.
AGE
19
GENDER
Female
EXPERIENCE
Over eight years experience.
CONTACT INFO
Ask for it?
TIME ZONE
Pacific
RULE PHRASE
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IT'S A VERY, VERY, MAD WORLD!
CHILDREN WAITING FOR THE DAY THEY FEEL GOOD, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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okay, here is how it goes. this application letter is made by eunicegoesRAWR! @
caustion.2! lyrics are by gary jules and tears for fear. please so do not steal or claim it as yours.
i have a short temper and if i see it and see no credit or anything like that, i will have to hurt you, biatch!
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