Guess this is Goodbye?

[ica]

Happily typing away. Reading manga, RPing, talking along with people.

Then my computer crashes.

Kind of. The computer froze really badly so I restarted it. But as I restarted it, it just shut down again. Every time I restarted it, it shut down again. It would start up but, at the moment before it reached the sign in page, it shut down again and restarted itself. My step-dad tried to fix it but nothing is happening. It just shuts down every single time. So I am left without
my home computer.

As most people know already, my laptop is also broken. It brings up the blue screen of death every time I log in to it and finally reach the desktop. It always goes blue screen of death and shuts down. So I have no laptop either. So how am I online right now? Actually, I am on my laptop in something called Safe Mode. I don't know if anyone else has been on the Safe Mode of their computer but it sucks. As far as I know, I can't use any form of IM. I can have maybe a maximum of two tabs up and switching between tabs takes a minute or two to load. But at least it gets me online. I hate using Safe Mode because of how slow it is. It's a last resort. Like right now, for instance. With how slow it is, I highly doubt I'll be online much. Which really sucks. When I am online, I won't be on an IM of any sort. I'll be in the cbox. But a lot of people must notice by now that people choose to speak over IM, not usually in the cbox. You can't talk about private things in the cbox. So I guess I'm out of luck then, aren't I? No more talking for me. I'd tell people to text me but my father pays for my phone. Anyone who knows my dad none of you would know he's not a reliable man usually. He did not pay for my phone therefore it costs me 35 cents a text for me. I don't have that money.

My parents refuse to spend another cent on my laptop. It's crap. So I don't think it's going to be fixed any time soon. I do know a boy who is able to fix computers. But guess where he is right now? Paris. I'm here in Canada. That helps a lot. Don't ask when he's coming back, I don't even know.

I am not going to deny it. I am in tears right now. I don't want to leave you guys. I never want to leave you guys. But I don't have a choice right now.

I'm sorry to everyone. Especially those of you I have threads with. Cuppy and Vicky? I'm so sorry. I have had no Zane muse and now I can't post 'cause of my computers and I feel worse. Sharky? I finally posted for you with Icarus but I don't know when I'll be able to post again. And Mattie. I have to threads with you. Dravery and then Icarus and Kohaku. I am so sorry that I won't be able to reply to those.

Then there's all the plotting sort of stuff? Or, for instance, Irosse. Cuppy? I'm so sorry. You're allowed to say they've spent time together, of course, but I won't be around to RP Boss much, most likely. So I'm sorry. I'm also sorry for the lack of Zane that Adrian will have. Vicky? I'm also sorry for the lack of Zane that you were going to use in your plotting. Mattie? We had IcarusScorpi plotting going on. It was lovely. I guess that's gonna have to on hold. As well as Drake and Avery related things. Or Arty. Can't forget anything with Arty. Then there was Drake and Ko's meeting that was supposed to happen! That'll have to go on hold too. And sorry also for our plotting on LC, Mattie... all that will go on hold Oh, if Ko gets raped while I'm gone, I'll know. Danny will tell me. I love you, Danny! You will tell me, yes? I know you will <3

And... Mattie, Mattie, Mattie... oh my god, I am so sorry. You don't know how much I wanted to write that story for you. I was supposed to write it today and give it to you tomorrow. I am so, so sorry. I wanted to be able to give it to you. I love you so much. I wanted to give you that lovely alternate universe ('cause it's not happening in this universe, sucker~) story. I am so sorry... maybe I'll write it out on paper for you and type it up when I have a computer. But it's still gonna be late! I just feel so bad about it. I'll write you two stories to make up for it, I swear I will.

Damn, I am so sorry and freaking out. I don't know when any of this will be fixed. I have unfinished profiles to do! Don't let people steal my face claims while I'm gone. Especially not Demi's again. I swear that I will come back the moment I have the ability to. I will also check in during Safe Mode now and then for sure, probably daily. If people are online when I'm on, I'm quite willing to hop into IC with them too! But I'll be slow.

Well... I guess this lack of computer means I can catch up on video games. Left 4 Dead 2... Fable 2... Final Fantasy XII... Legend of Dragoon. At least I won't be bored. I'll just be lonely. 'Cause I won't have any of you.

I love you all. Honestly and for surely. Don't ever forget that or I'll hunt you down and make passionate sex to you to prove it. If you want this passionate sex though without having to break my hurt and say you don't think I love you, then you're paying for my plane ticket.

So yes. I love you all.

Arrivederci? Au revoir? Adios? Auf wiedersehen? Look at all the A goodbye words.

- Carly

Icarus Falkenrather
Sebastian "Drake" Sepher
Zander Zohar
Bosse Kuroki
Demon "Demi" Don'trememberhislastname
Zedekiah Doom